
Everything is going great so far. I'm still having some times when I have painful contractions for a while, but they always stop on their own. My dr said that if I go into labor before my next appointment (March 25th) she will stop the labor. If it is after that, she will probably let me go ahead and have him early, depending upon how he measures. I'm getting really anxious. I'm so ready to not be pregnant anymore, but at the same time I don't know that I'm ready to have a newborn again. I know I can't have one without the other, but it's still scary. I'm afraid of Jeslynn being jealous of the new baby and me not being able to give her enough attention. I'm terrified of the idea of labor again, but at least this time it won't be induced. Nursing again also worries me a little bit.
I can not wait to have my body back again though! I know it won't be "normal" again for a while, but at least I will be able to sleep on my stomach again, the heartburn will be gone and I won't have a foot constantly kicking me in the ribs and a hand punching me in the bladder. lol It's always one of those things where you want what you can't have. I know once I'm not pregnant anymore, I'll miss it. I'll miss feeling the movements and may even miss the hiccups! haha! I'm really trying to enjoy every moment, because there is no way to know if this will be the last child or not. Nothing is guaranteed.
I am getting really excited about finding out what he will look like! Will he have blue eyes like his daddy, or hazel eyes like mine and Jeslynn's? My dad has blue eyes too, so there's always a chance. What color will his hair be? We all have dark brown hair, but we have red heads on both sides too. Will he be a big boy or small like Jeslynn was for the first few weeks? Birthmarks? Personality? There are so many things I still have to learn about this child I've been carrying for almost 9 months!
My hospital bag has been packed for about a week now. The only things left to throw in last minute are my daily use items, like makeup (yes I'm vain and will wear makeup to cover up the dark circles after hours of labor) and phone chargers, etc. I still need to finish packing Jeslynn's overnight bag for Mimi's house, but that should be pretty easy. Most things are already in her diaper bag.
We went to Sam's Club last night and spent what seemed like way too much money stocking up before Adler gets here. We bought diapers and wipes and stocked our freezer. We also got to see Brook and Chris, which was really nice since the next time they plan on coming up is at Easter, and if I go into labor early we don't know if they'll be able to be there.
Well, I've written plenty for today. My next update should be after my appointment on Wednesday afternoon.
Have a blessed day!
Sara



